Abandon

Ever since I was three my parents put me in an institution.
When I ask them they why did it? They had the attitude we did for your own good.
But to me I felt like let someone else take care of me.
People who are physically challenged like myself feel like we are burden to our parents’
and other members of our family. They have all sorts of reasons why they leave us behind.
One reason was they did not have the time to attend to our needs.
So we went without getting the attention we should have received.
Today is still in my mind the fear of having people leaving me behind.

Every now and them these feelings come back to me. When my P.C.A.S’ are late to
take care of me. When they finally get here all my fears disappear but it still frustrates me
I want to scream. The mire I try to explain how I have to depend on them
I get an answer I know again and again. I get hungry and thirsty too just like you.
When this happen all these feelings come rushing back to me from my childhood.
I guess you have to be in my shoes to know what I mean.

Written In February 1993